A Marraige, Beyond Repair…

A marriage, beyond repair, that, is what they ended up, “sharing”…

A marriage, beyond repair, how did it, get to this, huh?  Was it because of something we had done?  Something we didn’t do?  What is it, that’s caused, this originally working (barely!) marriage to get beyond repair, do you know?

A marriage, beyond repair, and seeing how, this porcelain doll called marriage can’t get GLUED back to its originally, unshatttered state, why keep it, huh?  Let’s just, put it (the marriage) out of ITS misery, and make sure, that its sufferings, don’t get prolonged.

a marraige, broken 的圖片結果like this???  Not my photo…

A marriage, beyond repair, how do we decide, when enough IS enough, and that the marriage is no longer, worth the time, or the energy we’d, invested in?  And, what if, one of us still want to try to salvage it, while the other already, threw IN the towels?  What do we do ‘bout it then???

A marriage, beyond repair, well, we need to, patch things up, best as we can, even IF we know, that the marriage is, completely, shattered, into many millions of bits and pieces, so we can, both feel better, about, not being the one, to quit before its time-of-death!

A marriage beyond repair, that’s just it, I see no future, not for me, staying, STUCK in this no-longer-my-priority marriage, and so, I took the liberty, and went ahead, filed for divorce, without YOUR “consent” (as IF I’d needed “consent” to get divorced from you???)………besides, I’m the only one here, previously, working so god DAMN hard, trying, to keep this marriage of ours (it was, you DO realize that, don’t you???) going, and now, I’m done!

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As the Thoughts of Goodbye Left My Mind…

I’m still, hung up, on our goodbyes, but, as I took that drive, down to the coastlines, the wind in my hair, it’d, taken away the thoughts…

As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I felt them, sticking to my mind, as I’d, pried them out one by one, they’d all, refused, to go!  As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I don’t know what I’ll do without them.  I’d, always lived, with the thoughts of goodbye on my mind, and, it’s, NOTHING easy, for something that’s so, stubbornly STUCK, to get wiped from my mind.

not my photo…

As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I can’t help, but wonder, why were they were in the first place?  As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, there would be, NO more of that goodbye left, inside that shot glass, after THIS round…………

As the thought of goodbye left my mind, well, they’re, gone now!  And, they ain’t, NEVER comin’ back, just like I’m, NEVER comin’ back, from leaving you behind!

 

 

 

 

Another Lie Out of You

That’s IT!  I’d, HAD it with your L-I-E-S!

Another lie out of you, I will NEVER believe, I’d believed you, for too god DAMN long (at the expenses of ME!) already, and, it’s time, that I KNOCKED myself, OUT of this high-chair that I’d, sat in, for all these years on end.

yup, it’s, exactly like that!  Not my photo.

Another lie out of you, how long, can you, keep this up?  I’d, wanted to test that “theory” of mine, which was why, I hadn’t, BUSTED your stories Y-E-T?  And, I just, keep on, waiting for the day, you finally, TOLD me the truth, and yet, you just, keep on assuming (which makes you into???  Yeah, uh, we should ALL get THAT by now, shouldn’t we?) that I don’t know…

Another lie out of you, I won’t have it, I’m already, checked out, auf wiedersehen, adios, adieu, addio, sayonara, do svidaniya, au revoir, see ya, wouldn’t wanna BE ya! 

There will, NEVER be, another L-I-E out of you, because, you don’t exist in MY god DAMN world, and I still reside here, in this, big, ol’ world of mine, with me, myself, and I, and the “three of us”, are still, very much in L-O-V-E, feel free to see this as a Narcissistic RELAPSE if you will………

like this…not my picture…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dreaming Together, a Poem

Finding the love you thought you’d lost again, translated…

Back Then, Promises Were, Easy

We Were, Prone to Make Them, Using Caffeine

Before We Parted

like this?  Not my photo…

We’d, Rummaged Through Both Our Coins

Selected Our Separate, Flavors of, Insomnia

Savoring What We’d, Shared in This Night

Then, We’d, Made Our Date

how it feels…not my picture…

There’s, that scent of, how these two people were still, connected, even as they’d parted ways, and, because love was still intact, that they’d either, grown or changed, so, they’d, split up, and after they split, and lived separately for a short while, they’d, decided, that they were, supposed to be together after all.  Reestablishing that lost love is what this is about, and sometimes, it’s, not as easy as making that connection again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One Step Closer, to Goodbye…

We’re, one step closer, to goodbye, and we don’t even know yet, that we’re, both, marching, STRAIGHT, into that end of our never-ending story…

One step closer, to goodbye, this, is the last thing we’d expected, as we set out together, hand-in-hand, after all, we were (past-tense???) once, long ago, so, very much in love, weren’t we?  What happened, huh?  One step closer, to goodbye, we’d, been, led on this, journey into the darkness, without any light, to show us the way, we could, only, fumble around in this love of ours, and heaven knows, how many times, we’d, stepped on one another’s toes, with those, steel shoes we were, wearing?

letting love go…not my artwork…

One step closer, to goodbye, that, is where we currently are, and, goodbye became, a definite, it seems, after all, we’d, gone from, strangers, to lovers, back, to strangers, again, in no more than just three short months’ time…

One step closer, to goodbye, let me just, save you the troubles, and sever off ALL these entangled ties, better sever ourselves from each other right now, than to let this entanglement last longer, dragging on, eternally, right???

hearts, separating 的圖片結果a tough to crack wall between these two hearts, not my artwork…

 

 

 

 

 

 

Started Something We Can’t Finish

That, is what we always do, man!  We’d always started something we can’t finish, either that life got in the way of us connecting, or, the connections between you and I, got lost, or something else got in the way.

Started something we can’t finish, I should’ve known, as it’d become, our ways of interacting with each other.  We’d always eagerly started something, then, we’d, lost that drive, to keep it going, and yet, we don’t, sever off completely, no, we just, allowed this, whatever you wanna call it that we ended up with continue on, and on, and on…

Started something we can’t finish, and now, I think, it’s time, for me, to change, for the very first time in life, I want to, finish something I’d, started: you!  It took me a very long time, to finally, get myself off of you (like the 12-step program???), and, although, I’d still missed you, every now and then, I’m always able to, CUT that thought out of my mind, before it become, too enormous that I couldn’t handle.

Now, that’s something new, isn’t it???  Finishing something I’d, started, long, long, long ago: Y-O-U!

Break Up or, Make Up

DAMN it, just MAKE up your minds already, huh???

Break up, or make up, it’d kept, going back and forth, back and forth, with all those hotshot stars, celebs, even every day people you and I know…

Break up or make up, does it matter?  And, how long’s gonna last this time, before the love goes BUST again, huh?  And yet, we’re, just, involved, in this, vicious cycle of love, continuing to, roll around, and around, and around, and, there’s, still, NO end in sight, for either one of us!

Break up, or make up, make up your minds already, and, if you break, DO break completely, don’t leave that window open (like our little Ms. Wendy had, so Peter could get in, ANYTIME he pleases!)…Break up, or make up, why is it so god DAMN hard, for us, to make up our minds about it, huh?  We’d already had a taste of what this love of ours entailed, and, there’s, NOTHING good that’s left for us to savor, and, we still can’t sever ourselves off from each other, because, what if (I mean, it is, a high possibility!!!), the next loves we’re in, aren’t good as this one we are about, to cut ourselves off from?  And that, is the dilemma of our love………