As the Thoughts of Goodbye Left My Mind…

I’m still, hung up, on our goodbyes, but, as I took that drive, down to the coastlines, the wind in my hair, it’d, taken away the thoughts…

As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I felt them, sticking to my mind, as I’d, pried them out one by one, they’d all, refused, to go!  As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I don’t know what I’ll do without them.  I’d, always lived, with the thoughts of goodbye on my mind, and, it’s, NOTHING easy, for something that’s so, stubbornly STUCK, to get wiped from my mind.

not my photo…

As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, I can’t help, but wonder, why were they were in the first place?  As the thoughts of goodbye left my mind, there would be, NO more of that goodbye left, inside that shot glass, after THIS round…………

As the thought of goodbye left my mind, well, they’re, gone now!  And, they ain’t, NEVER comin’ back, just like I’m, NEVER comin’ back, from leaving you behind!

 

 

 

 

Another Lie Out of You

That’s IT!  I’d, HAD it with your L-I-E-S!

Another lie out of you, I will NEVER believe, I’d believed you, for too god DAMN long (at the expenses of ME!) already, and, it’s time, that I KNOCKED myself, OUT of this high-chair that I’d, sat in, for all these years on end.

yup, it’s, exactly like that!  Not my photo.

Another lie out of you, how long, can you, keep this up?  I’d, wanted to test that “theory” of mine, which was why, I hadn’t, BUSTED your stories Y-E-T?  And, I just, keep on, waiting for the day, you finally, TOLD me the truth, and yet, you just, keep on assuming (which makes you into???  Yeah, uh, we should ALL get THAT by now, shouldn’t we?) that I don’t know…

Another lie out of you, I won’t have it, I’m already, checked out, auf wiedersehen, adios, adieu, addio, sayonara, do svidaniya, au revoir, see ya, wouldn’t wanna BE ya! 

There will, NEVER be, another L-I-E out of you, because, you don’t exist in MY god DAMN world, and I still reside here, in this, big, ol’ world of mine, with me, myself, and I, and the “three of us”, are still, very much in L-O-V-E, feel free to see this as a Narcissistic RELAPSE if you will………

like this…not my picture…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Tough-to-Crack Wall Between These Two Hearts…

like this?  Not my sketch…

There’s, this, tough-to-crack wall, between these two hearts, and, we’re, at wit’s end, coming up with the solution, to resolve this now.

A tough-to-crack wall, between these two hearts, who set it up first?  Does it, really matter?  No use, in placing the blames, this late in the game now, is there?  What can we do, to TEAR this hard-to-crack wall down, should be what we need to, work on for the time being!

it’s, EXACTLY liek this..not my artwork!

A tough-to-crack wall, between these two hearts, there’s, NO way, of tearing it all down now, it’s, too late, to save this worn out love already.  The walls got built up, by the grains of sands that, slowly, accumulated, with the very first angry word shouted, by either one of the individuals, and, resentment had built up, over time, and through the years, those two, lovebirds, just, fell out of love (as that kid with the slingshot, WHACKED, down one birdy???), there’s, NO denying that!

 

 

 

 

One Step Closer, to Goodbye…

We’re, one step closer, to goodbye, and we don’t even know yet, that we’re, both, marching, STRAIGHT, into that end of our never-ending story…

One step closer, to goodbye, this, is the last thing we’d expected, as we set out together, hand-in-hand, after all, we were (past-tense???) once, long ago, so, very much in love, weren’t we?  What happened, huh?  One step closer, to goodbye, we’d, been, led on this, journey into the darkness, without any light, to show us the way, we could, only, fumble around in this love of ours, and heaven knows, how many times, we’d, stepped on one another’s toes, with those, steel shoes we were, wearing?

letting love go…not my artwork…

One step closer, to goodbye, that, is where we currently are, and, goodbye became, a definite, it seems, after all, we’d, gone from, strangers, to lovers, back, to strangers, again, in no more than just three short months’ time…

One step closer, to goodbye, let me just, save you the troubles, and sever off ALL these entangled ties, better sever ourselves from each other right now, than to let this entanglement last longer, dragging on, eternally, right???

hearts, separating 的圖片結果a tough to crack wall between these two hearts, not my artwork…

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Saved Memories

On a lost love, translated…

“Yup, I guess, we should, head out on the road for a bit.”

I took your hand, on the white sandy beach of the warmth of the winter, with the beach extending into the distance, I looked back over the footprints that led us to where we are, getting wiped away by the waves.  We’d gotten tired from walking, so we sat, shoulder-to-shoulder, and that location was just right, allowed us to soak our feet in, and not getting our clothes wet.

just like that, love, was, wiped clean…not my photograph…

Neither one of us spoke, with our fingers intertwining, that salted wind brushed against our faces, you’d touched my lips lightly, then, put your index finger into my mouth, as if, leaving that memory in your heart, but this romantic gesture became, this inerasable pain for me many years later, that photo, I’d still kept in my wallet, I’d wanted to, let go of the past, but, I’d still, chosen, to keep the memories, in the most important of places.

With you around, you’d become, my special tourist attraction; with you gone, it’d turned into, but a mere, unique memory that’s, saved, inside my pockets.

painting from online…

So here, although the love is gone, but the memory is still, very much alive, and, these two individuals were very much in love, they’d, shared many wonderful moments, and now, he’s left, with the memories of the wonderful past that continued, to haunt him, it’s, sad, truly…

Erased Those Dreams

You took that eraser, and went across, all those dreams we’d, ever shared from before, and in less than an instant’s time, they’re, all gone!

Erased those dreams, and now, I can’t even recall, what any single one of them entailed, it’s like, I’d gotten, amnesia or something, odd, really, ‘cuz those dreams meant so very much, to me from before, and now………nothing remained.

like that!  Not my photo…

Erased those dreams, like how you and I, never even, existed at all, despite how hard we’d both worked, to salvage this love, you’d still decided, to pull the plug at the end!  Erased those dreams, and now, there’s, not any of us to live in.

Erased those dreams, so, dream up new ones!  It’s not that easy, after all, you’d, lost the trust you’d placed in that someone special, as s/he’d, betrayed your trust, and, made you, lost that important faith you have in your selves, and it’ll take, a very, very, very long time, for you, to find back that lost trust you’d originally had, in your selves from before!

Erased those dreams, let there be, no traces of them left, in my life, I’m, moving on, without the ball and chains these dreams have, holding me back now………

notmy photo still…

 

Started from Friends, a Short Prose

How can two people who’d, fallen in love ended up like this, I wonder???  Translated…

“Stop hanging out with all those good-for-nothing friends of yours, is it that hard, to spend some time with me?  It’s just like you, making friends with everybody, that, is why you ended up, with a ton of good-for-nothing’s as friends.”

the interactions, not my sketch…

“Can you stop being so judgmental of me, criticizing my friends all the time?  Do respect my feelings, will you?”

“I’m not wrong, your friends all carried several bad qualities, if you want, I can, break it all down for you right now………”

She was about to go into that long speech again, he felt a headache coming on, turned her back to her, and just, let her start ranting.  He thought, she must’ve forgotten, how they were first friends, before they were married, after falling in love slowly.  Up to this point, he’d started agreeing with her, “Some friends, you just, shouldn’t even be making from the very start.”

too late for this now, huh???  Not my photo…

Wow, imagine how much must’ve happened, for a marriage, to come to this?  This woman was critical of her husband’s friends, and started ranting about it, probably because he’d overlooked how she’d needed his company, and just went out to hang with his friends a lot, not spending enough time with his own wife, that, was probably what caused her to start ranting incessantly about his “bad friends”, and, she failed to realize, that they’d, started as friends too, and how, maybe, he’s just, nice to all his friends, and as she’d become his wife, he’d felt less of a need to please her, that, is probably how their love ended up where it currently is right now…