This Pretentious Love

Love was, nothing more, than playing pretend.  It was, quite easy, actually, we just, told ourselves, over and over, again, and again, that this nonexistent love is actually, in existence, and, after enough number of times, this lie that we made for ourselves to live in became, TRUE!

it’s, like this, you only THINK you know what she’s thinking but, you actually, don’t have a C-L-U-E!!!  Not my picture…

This pretentious love, that we’d, come to share, we’d both became, too comfortable, living in it, that we didn’t want to, change anything about it, knowing, that it’s all, play pretend (like playing house???), and, we’d gotten, used to, lying to ourselves, that this so-called nonexistent love, actually DOES, exist…

This pretentious love, why, do we lie to ourselves over it, huh?  There must be, better options out there available for us both, there’s, NO need, to keep this, pretentious love intact anymore, and, I’m, severing, the ties here.

left, with the broken pieces…not my photo…

This pretentious love is, NO more, I’d, taken it out back, and, PUT it out of its misery, with that shotgun, as, there’s, just NO need, for us, to keep on, dragging it along, lengthening, its, sufferings, it’s NOT humane, don’t you know???

And now, after we’d, given this, pretentious love its, proper burial, it’s time, we finally, stopped pretending, that we still, loved one another, it’s time, that we move on too, like this, pretentious love already had………

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Cage, that Set You Free

You were placed, in a cage, kept, behind these, steel bars, and, it’d, set you free surprisingly.  Being locked up, it helped set your life BACK into perspective, you’d done, so many evil things, to hurt some unknown strangers, as those who loved you, and cared for you too, for a very long time.

A cage, that set you free, you’d waited, a long, long time, for the day, that a hand from the outside to come, to reach toward that latch, that’ll, unlock, and set you free, but, as the day grew longer, longer, and longer, you’d felt, more, and more, AND more despair, ‘cuz the hand, it’d, never come.

not my photograph…in love's cage 的圖片結果

A cage, that set you free, how can you be set free, locked, inside this cage of your mind, huh?  A cage, that set you free, how?  Cages are supposed to, keep you bound, right?  So, how come now, you’d locked me up with this love of yours, and, I still feel, so free???

A cage, that set you free, that, is what love became, you’re, willing to, let love lock you up, and yet, as you’re, bound by these, handcuffs of love, shackles and chains too, you feel, so free that you could, fly, high as an eagle!  How’s that possible, huh???

with the key, out of your grasp…not my artwork…

 

 

 

Happy Holidays, a Poem

On celebrating a special occasion as a couple, translated…

Loving One Another

like this???  Photo from online…

In Looking Deeply into One Another’s Eyes

Love, Flashed on the Two Smiling Faces

Even the Roses in Her Hands

Are All, in Full-Bloom

Grinning, Ear to Ear

Love, is what this is about, when you’re in love with someone, anything that they do can put that smile on your face, and, they’d better enjoy this while they can, because once that knot gets tied…you SHOULD know the rest!

not my animation…

 

 

 

 

 

 

Having problems, being too comfortable, but knowing, that this, isn’t what a marriage looks like, a Q&A, translated…

Q: My Husband Didn’t Want a Divorce, and I’m Used to Having Him Around Too

Jen is close to forty, she’d been married for a little over a decade.  She worked in sales from before, she’d earned some money, but not as much as she thought she had; the reason being she’s very helpful, in order to climb the ladder fast, or to help make the bottom lines, she’d always loaned her money out, and never asked for the money she’d loaned out back.  Plus she’d enjoyed going out with her coworkers to dine, and she’d always, picked up the tabs.  In no more than three, four years’ time, she’d accumulated over two million dollars worth of credit card debts, and she’d stopped working, and just, dodged the collectors, in the end, it was her mother, and older siblings who’d, paid up the money for her; she’d sunk into sorrow for about six months, started back up again, worked as a makeup person in a wedding gown shop, that, was where she’d met her husband who is ten years senior, after falling in love for just one year, they’d, tied the knot.

Her husband’s work title was assistant, didn’t make nearly HALF of what she’d made, but Jen thought he was very even-tempered, they’d had a lot to talk about, so, she’d never taken any money from him.  She’d paid for the rent, the utilities in her home, and she was still able to put five, six thousand dollars into her savings.

the importance of love in a marriage…not my photo…

They’d never used contraception since they were married, but, six years after they were wed, they still hadn’t gotten pregnant, Jen wanted a baby, they’d gone to the fertilities clinic, and, the problem was on her husband.  To tell the truth, the health exams had, turned Jen’s view of her marriage upside down, thinking back, he wasn’t at all that motivated in work, didn’t like having sex at all, didn’t have enough energies either, and, this marriage, she seemed to be the only one, working hard, to make it work, her husband had this I could care less attitude.  Jen had had multiple heart-to-heart with him, and he doesn’t want a divorce, and suggested that they should sleep in separate rooms, and encouraged her to go out with her friends more, to live together separately.

But, close to age forty, Jen didn’t want to divorce, nor marry again, she didn’t want to, nor did she, have boyfriends, felt, that although there’s not that intimate connection between the family members with her husband, but she’d gotten used to it.  Would this sort of interactions in a marriage be too weird?

A My Advice

The two of you had been together for ten years, at least, you’re already, used to one another.  So long as the considerations of economics, the loans, and it wouldn’t bring either one of you down, you don’t need to care about what others on the outside thinks.  But, when you get to this stage, where the most basic “function” of a husband and a wife had, ceased to exist, divorce should be easier, why are you, still, holding on?

the binding of a marriage…not my photo

I know, because of convenience, and this woman, had settled, although her marriage can’t give her what she needed or wanted, but, she felt comfortable living in it, that, is why she’d lacked the motivations to change, and this is awful, because, NOBODY should settle in a marriage, whether or NOT they know they’re doing so or not…

Started from Friends, a Short Prose

How can two people who’d, fallen in love ended up like this, I wonder???  Translated…

“Stop hanging out with all those good-for-nothing friends of yours, is it that hard, to spend some time with me?  It’s just like you, making friends with everybody, that, is why you ended up, with a ton of good-for-nothing’s as friends.”

the interactions, not my sketch…

“Can you stop being so judgmental of me, criticizing my friends all the time?  Do respect my feelings, will you?”

“I’m not wrong, your friends all carried several bad qualities, if you want, I can, break it all down for you right now………”

She was about to go into that long speech again, he felt a headache coming on, turned her back to her, and just, let her start ranting.  He thought, she must’ve forgotten, how they were first friends, before they were married, after falling in love slowly.  Up to this point, he’d started agreeing with her, “Some friends, you just, shouldn’t even be making from the very start.”

too late for this now, huh???  Not my photo…

Wow, imagine how much must’ve happened, for a marriage, to come to this?  This woman was critical of her husband’s friends, and started ranting about it, probably because he’d overlooked how she’d needed his company, and just went out to hang with his friends a lot, not spending enough time with his own wife, that, was probably what caused her to start ranting incessantly about his “bad friends”, and, she failed to realize, that they’d, started as friends too, and how, maybe, he’s just, nice to all his friends, and as she’d become his wife, he’d felt less of a need to please her, that, is probably how their love ended up where it currently is right now…

 

Disastrous, a Poem

How we interacted, how we don’t complement each other, and yet, we can’t, live, without one another, the dilemmas of love, translated…

You are, that Cloud

Blurred, in the, Midst of the Lines of the Leaves

Sharpen at Times, Wet and Cold Too

Taking Over, an Entire Mountain’s Worth of Area

You are the Clouds

not my sketch…

Holding the Memories of the Oceans Intact

I’d Used My Raging Rain, to Make Myself Forget

In Exchange, for Your Clear Patch of Sunny Skies

It’s that Clear Patch of Sunny Skies

That’s Made the Dried Up Creek Sing Again

Making that Deserted Plain Come to Life Again

Then, Evaporates

My Sun Thus

a heart-shaped disaster, not my photograph here…

Started Fogging Up All Over Again

So, this, is the relationship the narrator has with someone he loved, they’d, complimented one another, and yet, they sometimes, became battling forces, as that, is how a lot of the relationships worked, we can’t all be happy all the time, there’s bound to be, those rainy days in our lives too, it’s how we handled those rainy day that’s more important, compared to the sunnier ones…

Don’t Say Never…

Don’t say never, as NONE of us can be sure of the futures one-hundred percent, and you wouldn’t want to, guess it wrong, would you?  So, don’t say NEVER!

Don’t say never, because deep down, you KNOW you’re, bound to, change your mind, maybe not today, tomorrow, or even, the next day, or anytime soon, for that matter, but eventually, you WILL, get swayed…

Don’t say never, you don’t know that for sure, I don’t know that for sure either!  So, let’s, just, keep these angry words, bottled up for now, and maybe tomorrow, when we wake (after a good night’s sleep???), we’ll, feel, differently ‘bout it?

Don’t say never, because, what will come towards us is, NEVER, and, we would be, ill-prepared, for the never that will become, a HUGE impact in both our lives.  So, just keep your thoughts to yourself, and I will also, keep all of these feelings, to nobody ELSE but me…